i missed this stirring in my soul.

Lately I have been having frequent waves of feelings from the past; that seem to consume most, if not all, of me for brief moments in time.

It may be because the seasons are changing, summers in Utah have always been life altering.

It may be just because I need this reminder, this stirring in my soul, to awaken my need for survival.

Whatever it is, John Mayor, trebuchet, the absence of closet doors, and a twin bed is adding quite a bit to these deja vu moments. hah!

The beautiful paradox of being a human being.

listening to: ben harper.

Do we have free will? If you believe that every event has/had a cause (which is sort of irrefutable)

then really you never choose/chose anything. Everything that has and will happen 

happens as a result of a previous event, which goes back to the very beginning of time!

The past (environment and previous events) determines the future, so where does free will fit in?

The only way to acquire free will is through self awareness. By reflecting upon oneself and ones actions, you take part in the results. You become a part of the cause that leads to the effect!