this is not about love

i wake to darkness
crawl out of my messy bed
and bid my adieus.

i dress... shoes, shorts, shirt
early the gym is empty
walk, run, bike, stretch out.

a long, hot shower
big day of judgment ahead
not sure i'm ready.

today means a year has past

since i decided to let sterling in.


a year...
a year full of joys and smiles. a year getting to really know a person inside and out. a year without promises or plans. a year without very much art. a year without very much angst. a year full of creation. a year of bike rides and long boarding. a year of pakalolo. a year of being a mama and a papa to a kitty cat. a year of building trust. a year of finding love.